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posted February 18, 2008 3:09 PM PST

Rant.

I feel disgusting.
I feel tired, dirty, cold, bloated, bored, unproductive, anxious and useless....pretty much 24/7.
I need this job to start, I need money, I need time and space to myself....I need choices, I need control over SOMEthing....
This waiting period has me going crazy internally....
This isn't my house, isn't my pantry, isn't my space and it feels so very wrong to my senses....
The lack of productivity is killing me...I dick around online, read for hours, help what little I can with the house, exercise, watch t.v. and basically stagnate...I feel ugly inside and therefore I feel ugly outside, I think I've been looking hideous these past couple weeks.....the fact that I desperately need a haircut doesn't help at all, either.
This is all temporary I know, but the hold up with getting my license app sent out and waiting for the owner to get back to me from being out of town is adding to my fears and anxiety, what if my license is held up? What if that affects me being hired? What if the owner has decided to hire someone else? I need something  to move, to click....even if it's negative, I need to know what to do next instead of just incessantly WAITING......
Anyone got a joint they can mail me?!

last updated February 18, 2008 3:09 PM PST